I never set out to achieve anything; in fact I'm a plodder. I take what comes at me, and I make the best of it. I don't do anything because there's something in it for me in the long run; in fact quite the opposite. I see it as a strength - those closest to me see it as my downfall. That's me; positive, aimless, unguided, no hidden agenda and out to please.
Recent times have seen my positivity create some amazing buzz, and together with some amazing people I've propelled into a space and time I don't really belong. High powered meetings and important email conversations, and all of a sudden people are looking to me for answers I didn't know had questions. I'm working on future plans and projects for things that don't benefit me one bit, not at all. That's just me... selfless and energised for other people's needs.
How and why do I manage to keep going? Well, I love the feeling I get when I help someone, and I love the look on someone's face when I tell them about Warwicktweetup or the Portas Pilot. I love the questions that ensue... How? Where? Why? When? Who? I love the feeling that something I do can benefit others and improve their day or week, even if it's just for a moment. I feed off that stuff, and the more I get, the more I give.
But here's the thing. What I do and say, what I tweet or blog, what I share or broadcast is from the heart. It's my passion that drives me, not money or personal gain. Recently I feel that my passion and selflessness have been taken for granted, and indeed to benefit others in their goals to better themselves. This doesn't fuel my passion, and it certainly doesn't feed my enthusiasm to continue. This was never meant to be something that wasn't fun. I don't get paid to do it any of it.
Positivity breeds positivity, but negative views and constant criticism only lead to dead ends in my book. I feel like I'm here to serve, and to provide something. As the guy from WarwickTweetup (a nonprofit group of friends and businesses) I feel that I owe it to groups and organisations to be here. WarwickTweetup is a bit of fun, it always was, and I hope it always will be. Sure if I could turn up to WarwickTweetup PLC every day and be paid to do it, I would. But WarwickTweetup is just a group of people, not the same people, not a corporation; in fact it's just people helping each other out and sharing good times. I'm not part of other groups or councils for the reason that it doesn't interest me, and I don't have the education to do so. I just help people; I put my hand up for anything, and I have the get-up and get-the-hell-on-with-it attitude. What I lack in skills, I make up for in energy. Although I don't doubt that the things I have achieved are great, I really don't think it's all that... anyone could have done it.
So this really boils down to:
"What's in it for me?"
Yep, I'm as bad as everyone else. What do I get from all this, apart from a buzz and some new friends? Well actually not a lot. I don't live in Warwick, I don't have a business in Warwick. In fact, win or lose ANYTHING (let alone the Portas bid) it makes no difference to me or my family. So when I get negativity and pressure to behave and perform as if I'm paid, I put the shutters up.
Nothing is more important than your support group, your family and your friends. Without them you're nothing. No man is an army. Together we're stronger - united we stand, divided we fall. If there's something that needs doing, then getting a strong united team together is the way to make it happen. I know this from WarwickTweetup; it's amazing what we can achieve if we all work together.
Your thoughts are welcome. Todd.